\u2018\u2018En \u00e7ok kaybolurken yaln\u0131z olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmeye ihtiya\u00e7 duyars\u0131n.\u2019\u2019 diye ge\u00e7irdi i\u00e7inden. \u2018\u2018Bir de s\u00fcrekli uyurken, uyu\u015fturulurken.\u2019\u2019 Sonra da i\u00e7i ge\u00e7ti, bulan\u0131kla\u015ft\u0131, darmada\u011f\u0131n oldu. Ay\u0131klamas\u0131 gerekiyordu. Belki de kalan \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fc i\u00e7ini temizlemeye ay\u0131rmas\u0131 gerekiyordu. Derken g\u00f6z\u00fcne tak\u0131ld\u0131. G\u00fcnl\u00fck gazete ve bitmi\u015f sigara paketleri vard\u0131 masan\u0131n \u00fczerinde. Bu lanet olas\u0131 hastanenin ap\u0131\u015f aras\u0131 kokan odas\u0131nda g\u00f6z\u00fcne tak\u0131lacak \u015feyler yok denecek kadar azd\u0131 zaten. Gazeteye uzand\u0131. Sigaras\u0131 da t\u00fct\u00fcn\u00fc de ya\u015famak i\u00e7in takati de yoktu, buna ra\u011fmen vakti \u00e7oktu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Okumaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Kelimeler, onu uyu\u015fturan ila\u00e7lar\u0131n panzehri olarak yan yana gelmi\u015flerdi sanki. \u2018\u2018Babam \u00f6lemiyor, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc ya\u015famaya ba\u015flamad\u0131.\u2019\u2019<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Neden yaz\u0131l\u0131r? Yery\u00fcz\u00fcne dayanabilmek i\u00e7in. Tezer \u00d6zl\u00fc. Edebiyat\u0131n gaml\u0131 prensesi diye addediliyor kitap kapaklar\u0131n\u0131n arkalar\u0131nda \u015fimdilerde. Bir s\u0131fata yap\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131l\u0131nca \u00f6yle hat\u0131rlan\u0131yorsun, bir \u00f6l\u00fcm tarihin varsa mecburen \u00f6l\u00fc oluyorsun. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Hayatla meselesi var…<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n Edebiyat\u0131n hem gaml\u0131 hem karaduygun kad\u0131n\u0131d\u0131r o bana kal\u0131rsa. Baz\u0131 yazarlar\u0131n konular\u0131 vard\u0131r, baz\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n meram\u0131… Tezer \u00d6zl\u00fc meram\u0131 ve hayatla meselesi olan bir yazar. Yazmaktan da \u00f6te ya\u015faman\u0131n kendisini bir ba\u015fkald\u0131r\u0131 olarak ortaya koyar. Ba\u015fkald\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 her t\u00fcr d\u00fczen ve kisveli fa\u015fizmdir. <\/p>\n\n\n\n \u00d6l\u00fcm ve ya\u015fam, bir hayat\u0131n mecburen i\u00e7inde ama asl\u0131nda tamamen d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda olma durumu… \u2018\u2018Ya\u015fam\u0131m boyunca i\u00e7imi kemirttiniz. Okullar\u0131n\u0131zla. \u0130\u015fyerlerinizle. Evlerinizle. \u00d6zel ya da resmi kurulu\u015flar\u0131n\u0131zla i\u00e7imi kemirttiniz. \u00d6lmek istedim, dirilttiniz. Yaz\u0131 yazmak istedim, a\u00e7 kal\u0131rs\u0131n dediniz. A\u00e7 kalmay\u0131 denedim, serum verdiniz. Delirdim, kafama elektrik verdiniz. Hi\u00e7 aile olmayacak insanlarla bir araya geldim, gene aile olduk. Ben b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131n d\u0131\u015f\u0131nday\u0131m.\u2019\u2019<\/p>\n\n\n\n Tezer \u00d6zl\u00fc kalks\u0131n ve bize yeni \u015feyler s\u00f6ylesin. Neden? Yery\u00fcz\u00fcne dayanabilelim diye\u2026<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" \u2018\u2018En \u00e7ok kaybolurken yaln\u0131z olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmeye ihtiya\u00e7 duyars\u0131n.\u2019\u2019 diye ge\u00e7irdi i\u00e7inden. \u2018\u2018Bir de s\u00fcrekli uyurken, uyu\u015fturulurken.\u2019\u2019 Sonra da i\u00e7i ge\u00e7ti, bulan\u0131kla\u015ft\u0131, darmada\u011f\u0131n oldu. Ay\u0131klamas\u0131 gerekiyordu. Belki de kalan \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fc i\u00e7ini temizlemeye ay\u0131rmas\u0131 gerekiyordu. Derken g\u00f6z\u00fcne tak\u0131ld\u0131. G\u00fcnl\u00fck gazete ve bitmi\u015f sigara paketleri vard\u0131 masan\u0131n \u00fczerinde. Bu lanet olas\u0131 hastanenin ap\u0131\u015f aras\u0131 kokan odas\u0131nda g\u00f6z\u00fcne tak\u0131lacak…<\/p>","protected":false},"author":13,"featured_media":2471,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_coblocks_attr":"","_coblocks_dimensions":"","_coblocks_responsive_height":"","_coblocks_accordion_ie_support":"","_eb_attr":"","inline_featured_image":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[99],"tags":[],"ppma_author":[581],"class_list":["post-2470","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-ezber-bozan-kadinlar","author-elif-demirel"],"authors":[{"term_id":581,"user_id":13,"is_guest":0,"slug":null,"display_name":"Elif Demirel","avatar_url":"https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/wp-content\/litespeed\/avatar\/6645cb091915aa845a631f70c3dcc224.jpg?ver=1784367503","author_category":"","first_name":"Elif","last_name":"Demirel","user_url":"","job_title":"","description":"elifdemirel@mordayanisma.org"}],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2470","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/13"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2470"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2470\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/2471"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2470"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2470"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2470"},{"taxonomy":"author","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/ppma_author?post=2470"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}