{"id":10383,"date":"2025-12-30T21:58:32","date_gmt":"2025-12-30T18:58:32","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/?p=10383"},"modified":"2026-01-02T16:59:21","modified_gmt":"2026-01-02T13:59:21","slug":"kadrajdan-kendi-evimize-bakmak-domates-biber-depresyon","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/en\/2025\/12\/30\/kadrajdan-kendi-evimize-bakmak-domates-biber-depresyon\/","title":{"rendered":"Kadrajdan Kendi Evimize Bakmak: \u201cDomates Biber Depresyon\u201d"},"content":{"rendered":"<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00dcniversitede \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc s\u0131n\u0131fta belgesel dersi al\u0131rken hocam\u0131z Ay\u015feg\u00fcl Selenga Ta\u015fkent\u2019in bize ilk \u00f6\u011fretmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015feylerden biri, hik\u00e2ye anlat\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131na ba\u015flamadan \u00f6nce kameray\u0131 kendi evimize \u00e7evirmemiz gerekti\u011fiydi. \u201cKendi hik\u00e2yesini bilmeyen ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n hik\u00e2yelerini anlatamaz.\u201d derdi.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u0130lk \u00f6devimiz, ev h\u00e2limizden g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcleri derse getirmekti. Kurgulamak ve bir film h\u00e2line getirmek sonraki a\u015famayd\u0131. \u00d6nce \u00e7ekmemiz ve kamera arac\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131yla kendimizi tan\u0131mam\u0131z istendi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Televizyon a\u00e7\u0131k, \u00e7aylar ve \u00e7ekirdekler sehpalarda. Evde b\u00fcy\u00fck bir salon olmas\u0131na ra\u011fmen hepimiz yan yana, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck oturma odas\u0131nda oturuyoruz. Anneannemin evindeyiz. Muhtemelen bayram. Teyzelerim, abim, anneannem, annem, kuzenim hep beraberiz. Eksikler var tabii ama ona ra\u011fmen farkl\u0131 \u015fehirler ve hayatlar tek bir odada tekrardan bulu\u015fmu\u015f. Sohbetin bir yerinde \u201chadi k\u0131z\u0131m Yaren\u201d diyorum, \u201ca\u00e7 kameray\u0131\u201d. Kameray\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131nca herkes bir an geriliyor, \u201c\u00f6devim var\u201d diyip \u00e7ekmem gerekti\u011fini s\u00f6yl\u00fcyorum. Kimse itiraz etmiyor bana ama bu durumdan \u00e7ok da ho\u015fland\u0131klar\u0131 s\u00f6ylenemez. Bir yerden sonra, \u00e7ekim yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bir kenara b\u0131rak\u0131p konu\u015fmaya devam ediyorlar. Bense se\u00e7ti\u011fim \u00e7er\u00e7evelerin ard\u0131ndan ailemi, b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm evi seyrediyorum ve y\u0131llard\u0131r tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m insanlar\u0131n kameraya kar\u015f\u0131 farkl\u0131 bir ki\u015fili\u011fe b\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcp b\u00fcr\u00fcnmediklerini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum. Tamamen unutmad\u0131lar kay\u0131tta oldu\u011fumu, belki biraz daha vakit ge\u00e7irmeleri gerekti, bilemiyorum. Zaman zaman orada bir g\u00f6z oldu\u011funu hat\u0131rlamalar\u0131 ya da belki de hi\u00e7 unutmamalar\u0131 beni olduk\u00e7a zorluyor. Yakalamak istedi\u011fim sohbetleri k\u0131l pay\u0131 ka\u00e7\u0131r\u0131yorum, izlendiklerini bildikleri i\u00e7in \u00e7ekiniyorlar benden ve ger\u00e7ekli\u011fin haricinde d\u0131\u015fa vurabildikleri kadar\u0131n\u0131 kaydedebiliyorum.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201cDomates Biber Depresyon\u201d filmini ilk kez \u00f6zel bir g\u00f6sterimde izlemi\u015ftim. \u0130zlerken de bu ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm, kameray\u0131 kendimize ve evimize \u00e7evirmenin ne kadar zor ama bir o kadar da y\u00fczle\u015ftirici ve iyile\u015ftirici bir taraf\u0131 oldu\u011funu\u2026 \u201cAyb\u00fcke ne kadar g\u00fczel anlar yakalam\u0131\u015f. \u0130nsanlar\u0131 kameraya \u0131s\u0131nd\u0131rm\u0131\u015f, g\u00fcven vermi\u015f ve g\u00fcn\u00fcn sonunda orada oldu\u011funu bile unutturacak kadar yol arkada\u015f\u0131yla b\u00fct\u00fcnle\u015fmi\u015f.\u201d demi\u015ftim kendi kendime. Diyaloglar\u0131n sahicili\u011fini de hayranl\u0131k i\u00e7inde seyretmi\u015ftim.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Film, Adana\u2019n\u0131n bir k\u00f6y\u00fcnde ge\u00e7iyor. Ayb\u00fcke\u2019nin k\u00f6y\u00fcnde, Ayb\u00fcke\u2019nin annesinin k\u00f6y\u00fcnde\u2026 Ayb\u00fcke filmde de s\u00f6yledi\u011fi gibi bir k\u0131\u015f g\u00fcn\u00fc annesine veda etmi\u015f. Annesi k\u00f6y\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7ok severmi\u015f, birlikte yazlar\u0131 k\u00f6ye giderlermi\u015f. Annesinin vefat\u0131ndan sonra k\u00f6y\u00fcn\u00fc ve insanlar\u0131n\u0131 daha yak\u0131ndan tan\u0131mak i\u00e7in bir yolculu\u011fa \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yor y\u00f6netmenimiz, filmi de annesine ithafen yap\u0131yor. O k\u00f6yde her hanede \u201cdepresyon\u201d oldu\u011fundan bahsediyor Ayb\u00fcke ve yine ayn\u0131 hanelerde sal\u00e7a yap\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan. Filmin ana omurgas\u0131n\u0131 sal\u00e7a yap\u0131m s\u00fcrecine oturtuyor, bu yolculuk s\u0131ras\u0131nda Naziye yengeyle, e\u015fi Mehmet day\u0131yla, Yakup day\u0131yla ve \u00e7evresindeki insanlarla tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yor bizi. K\u0131sa da olsa onlar\u0131n hem evdeki hem de tarladaki hayatlar\u0131na misafir oluyoruz. Film; Naziye yengenin sesi, Mehmet day\u0131n\u0131n sessizli\u011fiyle kahvalt\u0131 sofras\u0131nda ba\u015fl\u0131yor. Ard\u0131ndan Ayb\u00fcke\u2019nin k\u00f6y\u00fcnden bahseden d\u0131\u015f sesiyle filme tam giri\u015f yap\u0131yoruz. \u201cSal\u00e7a yap\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7ok a\u015famal\u0131d\u0131r: toplama, ay\u0131klama, \u00f6\u011f\u00fctme, kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131rma, kurutma. Peki ya depresyondayken? Depresyondayken sal\u00e7a nas\u0131l yap\u0131l\u0131r?\u201d&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image alignright size-medium\" style=\"margin-top:var(--wp--preset--spacing--30);margin-right:var(--wp--preset--spacing--40);margin-bottom:var(--wp--preset--spacing--30);margin-left:var(--wp--preset--spacing--40)\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"300\" height=\"169\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" src=\"https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/DBD_2-300x169.avif\" alt=\"-\" class=\"wp-image-10389\" title=\"\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/DBD_2-300x169.avif 300w, https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/DBD_2-1024x576.avif 1024w, https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/DBD_2-768x432.avif 768w, https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/DBD_2-1536x864.avif 1536w, https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/DBD_2-18x10.avif 18w, https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/DBD_2.avif 1600w\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Antidepresan kullan\u0131m oranlar\u0131n\u0131n artt\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fczde, \u015fehirden k\u00f6ylere, hayat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n her alan\u0131na sirayet etmi\u015f duygusal bir \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn tam da ortas\u0131ndayken bu konunun ne kadar da dikkatimi \u00e7ekti\u011fini fark ediyorum. Toplumsal travmalar\u0131n, ya\u015fayamay\u0131\u015flar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnemeyi\u015flerimizin ve s\u0131k\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fl\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n i\u00e7inden d\u0131\u015far\u0131ya bakmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorum. Yakup day\u0131n\u0131n sesini duyuyorum, \u201cBizim hayat iyi ya, devam ediyor i\u015fte, karn\u0131m\u0131z doyuyor yeter.\u201d diyor. Yeter mi sahiden diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum. Hayat\u0131n iyi olmas\u0131 i\u00e7in, devam edebilmek i\u00e7in, mutlu olabilmek i\u00e7in, karn\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n doymas\u0131 yeter mi? Kendimi ya\u015famakla hayatta kalmak aras\u0131nda bir yerde b\u0131rak\u0131p ya\u015fam\u0131n manas\u0131n\u0131 anlamak isteyen zihnimi takip ediyorum, sistemin dayatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 ko\u015fullar\u0131 da yan\u0131ma alarak.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Filmde yer alan herkesi ayr\u0131ca selamlamakla birlikte, izlerken \u201cN\u2019olur biraz daha konu\u015f\u201d diye heyecanla seyretti\u011fim karakterin kesinlikle Naziye yenge oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum; o kadar samimi ki film boyunca toplumsal cinsiyet rollerine dair bir\u00e7ok ger\u00e7ekle kar\u015f\u0131la\u015f\u0131yoruz ve Naziye yengenin verdi\u011fi cevaplarla i\u00e7imize su serpiliyor sanki. Naziye yenge filmin ba\u015flar\u0131nda, \u201cOh ne g\u00fczel ya! Ke\u015fke erkek olsayd\u0131m bu k\u00f6yde. Olan y\u00fck kad\u0131nlar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde, hele bir f\u0131rsat\u0131n\u0131 bulsunlar tam faydalan\u0131rlar.\u201d diyor. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc kad\u0131nlar hem evde hem tarlada, uyand\u0131klar\u0131 andan uyuyana kadar \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorlar. Erkekleri ara ara kendi aralar\u0131nda sohbet ederken g\u00f6r\u00fcyoruz, kad\u0131nlar o anlarda bile ya ekmek yap\u0131yorlar ya biber kesiyorlar. Ama ellerinde her daim bir i\u015f var, s\u0131rtlar\u0131n\u0131 rahat\u00e7a arkalar\u0131na yaslay\u0131p bulunduklar\u0131 yerin havas\u0131n\u0131 tasas\u0131zca i\u00e7lerine \u00e7ekemiyorlar. Elleri dursa zihinleri durmuyor.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Filmde ana ak\u0131\u015f\u0131n aras\u0131nda duydu\u011fumuz Ayb\u00fcke\u2019nin d\u0131\u015f sesi ve s\u0131k s\u0131k kullanmay\u0131 tercih etti\u011fi sabit kamera g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcleri de seyirciye hem nefes ald\u0131r\u0131yor hem de filmi izlerken d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnme bo\u015fluklar\u0131 b\u0131rak\u0131yor.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Yakup day\u0131, Ayb\u00fcke\u2019ye \u201cBunu neden yap\u0131yorsun? Film \u00e7ekmek hastal\u0131k gibi bir \u015fey!\u201d diye soruyor. Ayb\u00fcke\u2019nin \u201cElimde kameramla dolan\u0131rken kendime sormadan edemiyorum, hastal\u0131k m\u0131 yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131m ger\u00e7ekten?\u201d diyen sesi kulaklar\u0131ma doluyor. Hik\u00e2ye anlat\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n zorluklar\u0131n\u0131, bu yolda y\u00fcr\u00fcme iradesinin ne kadar g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc bir arzuyla kavu\u015fmas\u0131 gerekti\u011fini, yola \u00e7\u0131kma ihtiyac\u0131n\u0131, yolun \u00f6\u011fretilerini, \u00e7arp\u0131\u015fmalar\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum.&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"576\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 800px) 100vw, 800px\" src=\"https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/DBD_3-1024x576.avif\" alt=\"-\" class=\"wp-image-10390\" title=\"\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/DBD_3-1024x576.avif 1024w, https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/DBD_3-300x169.avif 300w, https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/DBD_3-768x432.avif 768w, https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/DBD_3-1536x864.avif 1536w, https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/DBD_3-18x10.avif 18w, https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/12\/DBD_3.avif 1600w\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ayb\u00fcke\u2019nin, annesinin \u00e7ok sevdi\u011fi k\u00f6y\u00fcne ziyaretinin ve annesinin k\u00f6y\u00fcn\u00fc neden \u00e7ok sevdi\u011fini ke\u015ffetmesinin buruk s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hissediyorum i\u00e7imde. Duygular birbirini takip ediyor ama finalde filmin g\u00f6sterildi\u011fi odadan bir tebess\u00fcmle \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yorum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Hat\u0131r\u0131mda Mehmet day\u0131n\u0131n \u201cYa\u015fam bitmezse film de bitmez, bug\u00fcn biter yar\u0131n ba\u015flar.\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fcyle\u2026<\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u00dcniversitede \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc s\u0131n\u0131fta belgesel dersi al\u0131rken hocam\u0131z Ay\u015feg\u00fcl Selenga Ta\u015fkent\u2019in bize ilk \u00f6\u011fretmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015feylerden biri, hik\u00e2ye anlat\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131na ba\u015flamadan \u00f6nce kameray\u0131 kendi evimize \u00e7evirmemiz gerekti\u011fiydi. \u201cKendi hik\u00e2yesini bilmeyen ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n hik\u00e2yelerini anlatamaz.\u201d derdi.&nbsp; \u0130lk \u00f6devimiz, ev h\u00e2limizden g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcleri derse getirmekti. Kurgulamak ve bir film h\u00e2line getirmek sonraki a\u015famayd\u0131. \u00d6nce \u00e7ekmemiz ve kamera arac\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131yla kendimizi tan\u0131mam\u0131z istendi.&hellip;<\/p>","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":10387,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_coblocks_attr":"","_coblocks_dimensions":"","_coblocks_responsive_height":"","_coblocks_accordion_ie_support":"","_eb_attr":"","inline_featured_image":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[98],"tags":[1529,212,1528],"ppma_author":[1408],"class_list":["post-10383","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-kultur-sanat","tag-domates-biber-depresyon","tag-feminist-sanat","tag-film","author-yaren-esin"],"authors":[{"term_id":1408,"user_id":0,"is_guest":1,"slug":"yaren-esin","display_name":"Yaren Esin","avatar_url":"https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/wp-content\/litespeed\/avatar\/23494c9101089ad44ae88ce9d2f56aac.jpg?ver=1784192493","author_category":"","first_name":"","last_name":"","user_url":"","job_title":"","description":""}],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10383","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/5"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=10383"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10383\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":10391,"href":"https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10383\/revisions\/10391"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/10387"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=10383"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=10383"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=10383"},{"taxonomy":"author","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.mordayanisma.org\/en\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/ppma_author?post=10383"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}